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And so it begins… again…

Right, for those of you who follow my blog, you’ll already know that on February 16th 2012 I committed to a 15 week plan to lose 15 kilograms and stop smoking and generally improve my health.

Well the first thing I realised was that I was not actually 15 kilo’s overweight, I was about 10 so I adjusted my personal target to 10 weeks to lose 10 kilo’s.

Sadly I have been a complete pillock and managed to lose a mere 4.2 kilograms so far. I have lost more than that but have managed to GAIN WEIGHT during my diet.

“How is this possible?” you might ask.

Simple. I grew complacent. Then I grew lax. Then I became disappointed. Then I started eating everything in sight to make me feel better about not losing weight. Then I stopped exercising because, well because I am an idiot.

The good news is that I am still not smoking and aside from the occasional craving, have not had much in the way of coming close to falling off the wagon.

Aside from the two big drunken evenings I have already written about, I have had no more than casual thoughts about smoking, things like “hey, I would usually smoke a cigarette now!” and being an ex-smoker is now settled in for real. Hallelujah!!!

On the weight side of things, I have truly got to “up my game”. Or at least “keep my game on”.

I have finally realised (with the support and advice of a fantastic group of people going through the same shit as me on Facebook) that it is not all about losing all the kilo’s today. It is about slowly adapting and adjusting my lifestyle choices so that the weight falls away without too much concious effort and STAYS off because that is what my lifestyle creates.

Thankfully summer is here again and I know that this year will be a MUCH more active year than past summers. I have promised Griffin that we will use the kayak MUCH more and that we will walk the dogs more and that we will go cycling more. More more more, all of it good clean outdoors physically active stuff. Rain or shine, this year I am not going to sit indoors on my fat lazy arse because in a few months time we will be joined by Lincoln Wyatt Danger Gill and I need to invest as much time into Griffin now so that he does not feel sidelined by this whole new family addition thing.

 

 

Day 54: Talk about slacking off…

I quit smoking on the 17th of Frebruary 2012.

That was 54 days ago today.

I also started taking care of my body, watching what I eat and held back on the drinking.

Overall I have been fairly successful but I have absolutely managed to start slipping away from the prize.

When I started this effort I weighed in at 93.5 kilo’s and have managed to bring myself down to a stable 88.3 kilo’s through a small amount of exercise and by eating only marginally better than I usually do.

Sadly, I managed to get myself down to 87.5 and then I started basking in my own glory and becoming a lot more lax with my personal strictures about how I should be controlling myself and my impulses. I then gained almost a kilo and have been struggling for the last two weeks to keep that from increasing and undoing all of my hard work.

As a first time serious dieter, I have had some very interesting insights into the way the body and mind behave as we start to change our behaviour.

Most curious to me was the number of parallels I can draw to my experience as I have quit smoking.

I mean lets face it, losing weight is not all about food, but food choices make a significant impact on your success. I know, my food addiction is slowing my progress significantly.

I have been through all the typical addition scenario’s.

1. Motivation
In this stage I find that I am easily motivated to achieve success. This is the beginning of the “quitting” process and is easy to remain motivated because you have made a conscious decision to stop smoking/eating junk

2. Elation
In this stage, the initial motivation sees a determinable measure of success. Food tastes better for people quitting smoking, weight falls off for those dieting. This stage is a great one to be in because you get here by seeing the results of your hard work in stage one.

3. Complacency
This is my serious nemesis stage. Once I have been successful and moved through the first two stages I start finding I have a little leeway available to me with which I can reward my efforts. And by reward I mean “cheat”.
I have found that when quitting smoking I usually hit this stage at around 21 days. After 3 weeks of not smoking I have totally quit the habit and so feel quite confident that when I light up a reward smoke at the pub it is not going to impact me at all. And THAT is why I have never made it past 28 days… (except this time – 54 days and going strong). With food, I found I also hit this invisible 3 week barrier. After 3 weeks of easy dieting and mild exercising every day, after losing almost 7 kilograms, after all my hard work, I had leeway to cheat. Result? Stage 4….

4. Disappointment
In this stage you see the hard work that you have put in start to fall away and you get a little disheartened. Disappointment in yourself gets you doing al the things an addict does… eating more, smoking more, berating yourself for not keeping to the regime. Once that settles in  the spiral of disappointment kicks in.

5. Doubt
This is the most difficult  place for me to find myself. I have settled into a big hairy ball of doubting my ability to get the fuck out of this funk and get back into exercise and diet mode. Excuses and fear and self pity continually push me into a state of apathy and general malaise. I have sat in this stage for a goodly number of weeks now. Binge eating then starving, watching my weight then ignoring my effort. in 4 weeks I have managed to remain fairly stable at 88.4 kilograms, but this is not where I WANT to be. I keep on saying things like “I just cannot seem to get out of this funk”. Instead of just getting off my arse and doing the things I was doing a few weeks earlier.

So, I am having to look how to get myself back into stage one again because I have failed myself so far.

I know that I have 3 weeks left in which to lose another 5 kilograms, so I should be good to go if only I would just do what I know I am capable of.

So I have decided to start again for 3 weeks. If I don’t get to 83 kilo’s I will let Emma decide on a suitable public and embarrassing punishment to be posted to this blog for your viewing and laughing pleasure.

Lets see how quickly I can get to stage 6… settling into the new body…

Day 13 – my lucky day?

Well yes, it was a lucky day.

I got my laptop back with a new hard drive, bringing it back up to speed was not as hard as it could have been. Some work I had been doing got finished off and I liked the end result. I also got home in time to snuggle with Griffin and Emma at Griffin’s bed time and got to spend the evening with my beautiful wife :)

So – a good day.

As far as food went, a weird day.

I had a cup of cooked spinach and a pork loin steak for breakfast immediately after my morning exercise regime. I had two banana’s through the day and had 8 pieces of various sashimi for lunch (late lunch at 3:45pm). On the train I broke down and had a pack of quavers and got home and had a chicken and marrow and onion type thing that Emma had cooked with couscous. Not a bad day, my calories still came in under target (I am targeting 1250 per day)

My measuring tape also arrived *EEEEK*

I will start measuring myself from tomorrow morning, every morning, and will chart it out in excel and do a once a week update on my progress.

I also decided yesterday that I am going to try very hard to use this myfitnesspal thing – if it means eat simpler meals so I can find the bits easier, then so be it :)

That’s all for today – weigh in and measurements coming tomorrow morning.